--10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now--

10. You are my second half. I don't know what I would do without you. I often wonder what life would be like without you, and it's kind of like trying to imagine what the end of the universe looks like.. it's impossible.<3

9. Of all the people in the world, I know that I can always count on you, and you can count on me. Even though we may have grown apart and gotten older, we are still the same to each other. I would take a bullet for you.<3

8. I did not think it was possible for so few words to hurt me so much. You're number one on my list of jerks right now, but if you were to just apologize, I would forget all about it.. and I hate that.

7. I still miss you. I wont ever stop missing you.

6. Ahh! Why are we so good for each other? You're like my brother and best friend all rolled into one! [although you probably don't even know that's what I think] I freakin' love you, kid.

5. I'm extremely pleased that we've finally reached an equilibrium in our lives. It's one of the best feelings ever. Even though you already know it, I feel like I should say it again: you will always have a special place in my heart.

4. I love you like a friend.. just a friend. I hate to say it, but I'm worried that it'll never be enough for you. =[ I just want you to be happy.

3. You're going to get a harsh reality check, very, very soon. Sorry, but I told you so. Grow up.

2. I feel like you're slipping away-- and it's bogus. Just forget about everyone else and what they think; be yourself.

1. You are the freaking peanut butter to my jelly. the milk to my cheerios. throughout all of the laughter, drama, late night conversations, and tears over the years, you've still given me a reason to smile. I hope you realize just how much I mean it when I say I love you. =]



--9 things people may not know about you--

9. I sing very loud and passionately when I'm alone. When I'm by myself, I think I have a pretty good voice. However, when I'm with other people, I just sing like a goof to hide the fact that I'm insecure about singing. x.x

8. I write-- a lot. I have a ton of shit stored in random places -- my computer, journals, pieces of scrap paper, post-its, etc, but I've only shown all of it to one person before.

7. I went through stages in my life, fashion-wise. I was a "tom boy", a "goth", a "punk", a "prep", and now I'm just whatever I decide to throw on -- it could be a combination of any of the above. It wasn't a phase just because I thought it was the "in" thing to do, but more of a reflection on my life style at the time.

6. My major [after a lot of thought] is mechanical engineering. It scares the living daylights out of me. It's a male dominant field, and I feel like it isn't my true calling, even though it's something I enjoy. I don't doubt that I'll end up going back to school for something else, but for right now, I'm content.

5. I have a ton of friends that I like to casually hang out with at times, but theres a limited number of people whose company I enjoy for an extended time. Don't take offense to it, but I'm kind of a loner.

4. I love music. All kinds of music. You could find everything from rap, to classical, to heavy metal, country and pop on my computer. Also, I have a sick gift of knowing the words to pretty much every song that you would throw at me.

3. When I'm feeling blue, I sleep with a teddy bear, given to me by my best friend. I'm not ashamed of it in the least-- it's nice knowing that even when no one is around to comfort me, I can take comfort in one of my favorite possessions. =]

2. As much of a goof or a weirdo as I seem to be, I'm only like that because I think people are way too serious in life. If need be, I can be normal and intellectual, or what have you. I just like saying what I think and acting how I feel.

1. I'm a big believer in karma. I would rather bite my tongue and smile, knowing that you'll get what's coming to you.



--8 ways to win your heart--

8. Make me laugh -- I think most people are way too serious, and they'll die in their 40's from a stress induced heart failure. I'm constantly joking around about EVERYTHING and making people laugh, so I like someone who can make me feel the same way.

7. Don't be a jerk -- I've dealt with too many of them in my life. Seriously, even being rude to a waiter makes me grind my teeth. I just don't see why it's necessary, unless that person did something to specifically make you angry. Say what you want behind closed doors, but just smile and keep it civil.

6. Don't reject my opinions -- I understand if you don't like the same things I do. My taste is completely random and probably unexpected, with movies, books, music, and pretty much everything else in between. I get it, you don't like Taylor Swift's new cd, and you're not a fan of vampires, but it's not "retarded" or "gay" if I do.

5. Be honest -- I HATEHATEHATE people who lie. I can admit, I'm not anywhere near perfect-- I lie too, but if I ask you if my hair looks like hell, I won't get mad if you say yes. Chances are, I'm asking because I thought it looked like hell in the first place, not because I'm trying to trick you. And, even if something does happen, I forgive nearly EVERYBODY, so don't just lie and make it worse.

4. Don't act different around me -- I never understood why anyone does that. JUST BE YOURSELF. I have a high tolerance for many people, even stupid ones. Chances are, I will like you more for exactly who you are, rather than who you're pretending to be.

3. Pick on me! -- IN MODERATION. I love teasing people [jokingly, of course] about everything. Friendly banter is just another fun way to get through life. I enjoy when people can handle what I throw at them, and throw it back just as fast. 9 1/2 times out of 10, I'll find what you said completely hilarious and I won't even be able to think of something else to say.

2. Listen to me -- I don't expect you to come running to my house at 4 in the morning with chicken soup and a shoulder to cry on [although it would be awesome, to say the least], but sometimes I need someone to just listen to what I have to say. Most of the time I don't even expect an intelligent answer or a solution, just a place to let out my feelings that isn't white and lined and was once a tree.

1. Hug me!! -- I'm a very touchy-feely person. [I think it has something to do with being overly friendly, caffeinated, and Italian. ] It is not uncommon for me to touch someones arm while talking to them, or jump on them in the middle of a conversation. AND I ALWAYS HUG EVERYBODY. If I've met you face-to-face and I haven't hugged you, either I was busy, or there's a specific reason [like you smell ]. I love giving hugs and receiving them back! I think it's the second best way to reveal to someone how much you care about them.



--7 things that cross your mind a lot--

7. I should really go to bed already.

6. I just had a fantastic idea! Eh, I'll get to it later.

5. I really miss [insert name here]. I wonder how [he/she]'s doing?

4. I need to clean my room. [even though it's never messy according to most people]

3. What am I going to give to [insert name] for [insert holiday/occasion]? [I LOVE buying people presents!]

2. What homework do I still have to do for tomorrow?

1. I'm hungry!



--6 things you do before you fall asleep--

6. Eat something [I can't sleep on an empty stomach]

5. Brush my teeth/hair [I roll around a lot when I sleep, so it gets ridiculously knotted.]

4. Make my bed [Yes, I know, it's redundant to make your bed right before you get into it to sleep, but I don't like how it feels to sleep in tangled sheets and the like.]

3. Feed my turtle [I turn on his light and feed him right before I go to bed, for two reasons: I'll have a night light, and otherwise, I'll forget to feed him when I wake up/in the middle of the day]

2. Call/text someone [usually my boyfriend, but I like talking to someone right before I go to bed-- it helps calm my mind and keep it from running off in a million different directions like it does throughout the day]

1. Turn on the tv [I usually put will & grace on.. it's kind of like my warm bottle of milk ]


--5 things you notice in the opposite sex--

5. Smile.

4. Sense of humor.

3. Eyes.

2. Intelligence.

1. Attitude.



--4 things you wish you never did/had--

4. I wish I never said that to him. =\

3. I wish I never had told you about that.

2. I wish I never trusted you.

1. I wish I never had a fight with you before I left.. I never had a chance to say I'm sorry.


--3 songs to describe your life--

3. It's my life -- Bon Jovi.

2. Defying Gravity -- Wicked.

1. Amazed -- Lonestar.


--2 things you want to do before you die--

2. Get married, have a family, and influence my kids the same way I was, negative or positive, depending on your opinion, but I think my parents did a great job, and I want my children to think the same of me someday.

1. I want to make a difference in the world. An impact, somehow. Whether it be inventing something, writing a book, or just doing some sort of charity, I feel like it's an obligation for having such an awesome life.



--1 confession--

I feel like you're a better friend to me than I can ever imagine being to you [even though I know you would say the exact opposite to me]. I love you more than life itself, and to hell with anyone who thinks that's weird. I want to say this to you all the time, but I don't, for fear that I might scare you off, even though that's impossible by now. One day.. one day. You know what I mean.